You Could Break Me So Easily...Or Fall For All Of Me

You washed over me, like an ocean's wave,

Powerful but gentle.

You cleansed me of all the things I used to be.

You took away my insecurities,

My fears,

My apprehension,

My past.

You gave me back the one thing

I thought was eternally lost to me:

Hope.

You were my savior.

You were my rescue amid the storm.

When others ignored my calls for help,

You were able to take me out of my despair,

Whether or not you knew it at the time.

I hope so much these days because of you.

Hope that I make you happy.

Hope that you can forgive my indiscretions.

Hope that we last.

Hope that all the things I secretly wish for us

You are silently wishing for as well.

When I say, "I love you",

I am saying so much that you can't hear:

"Love me."

"You are my everything."

"Take all of me."

"I need you."

"You take my breath away."

"Be my forever."

I've fallen into you with my entire being.

And I've never felt safer.

This Is What I've Been Waiting For

Are things finally falling into place? Am I honestly on my way to being happy, satisfied, sane? I am finally at peace with myself...and with the world around me. I never thought I'd achieve this. I never thought I'd figure it out. For once, I have accepted all the good in my life and am beginning to appreciate it truly. All the bad in my life is either being reconciled or simply left behind. Is this what it feels like to know where your life is going? It's so foreign, but so far it feels great. I'm finally letting go of so many things that I just couldn't hold onto any longer. I am not forgetting, but I am finally forgiving my past. Every bit of it.

I think this is what people call "happy".

Begin Again

Hovering here now in the dark

I feel this silence heavy on my skin.

This silence is filled with the many things we never said,

The many things I was too scared to admit.

But I am moving on.

I am playing a new love song in the midst of all this heavy air.

This love song has a new tune.

This love song is the sweetest I've ever known.

It's a song that taught me to how to love again.

It's about me.

This is the strongest I have ever felt.

Instead of waking to each day with fear and disappointment,

I wake with renewed hope.

Each day I wake and dip my toes in the ocean of happiness.

I never even thought this sea existed before

But now I live at the shore's edge.

Everything you ever said to tear me down,

Everything you wished would destroy,

Only built me back up.

I am now someone I never thought I could be.

I have recaptured myself:

My faith,

My hope,

My fidelity,

My heart.

I finally know who I am

And who loves that person truly.

For the first time in my life, I own me.