Home For My Heart

I have started this letter a thousand times over in my mind...but I have struggled to find the words to properly express myself. I suppose that these will have to suffice. I am so overwhelmed with love and happiness because of you. You are the reason I am alive, in more than one way. The times when I made myself impossible to love, you found it within yourselves to love me. All the good in me is because of you. Everyday I wake up grateful that I am so lucky to have known two individuals like you. I have made so many mistakes and am so often caught up in my selfish, twenty-year-old life, but I hope to never let a day go by that you don't know how much I love you.

All the years that I gave my all to achievements and accomplishments to earn your love, I had it all along. It took a complete breakdown, my complete vulnerability in your eyes, to realize that it wasn't the facade, the grades, the recognition that you loved. It was me. It was my flaws, my stupid sense of humor, my off-the-wall remarks, my constant drama. Your unconditional love and support, especially that which you've shown me over the past few months, has been the most important thing in my life, whether or not you know it.

I am such a better person because of you. I never stop learning lessons that you teach. I never stop finding new ways to respect you. I may not ever make $500,000 a year or have ten grandchildren or know what I'm doing with my life for that matter, but I know that no matter what I can count on you being there whatever it is that I do. In my eyes, you are the epitome of success. You have managed to love one another, have and keep a beautiful family, and cultivate a love and bond that is impermeable. You have instilled in Elaine and I, both, the importance of family, and nothing can ever take that away. Nothing will ever come above you. Nothing will ever compare to my love for you.

I love you both.